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This looked different on my computer while post-processing, paler background. But it's late and I'm tired so I'll just leave it.
Should I have put a frame around this? Something is missing around the corners.
Maybe viewing it large on black is what it needs.

Well I'm posting this because I should be working on other things, I should had worked all of today, instead I locked myself up, preventing myself from doing things I want because I should be working, which I'm not. Clever. Almost done with a year of studying but I'm stalling the last of what I need to do.
Getting on track is no simple task.

In three days I'll be done with my first year of university. All that stands between now and then are two assignments that needs completing, yet I stall. If I finish them now or tomorrow I'll be done now or tomorrow and will be able to officially call myself free from academic commitments for a couple months.

Today was supposed to be an effective day of work. I was supposed to get so much done. What happens is, I lock myself up in my room telling myself; no fun till I'm done, then I sit down in front of the screen with a pile of notes to my left, books to my right. I start reading and writing, two hours goes, I take a break, have an apple, and never get back to work.
So there I was, locked up in my room, "working", but I wasn't, not going to the beach or even having a chat because I should be working, which I wasn't, sitting in the same spot for hours because I was just about to work, which I didn't, doing absolutely nothing of interesting because anything else would be too distracting to my work, which I wasn't doing, and here I sit now talking about working, which I should be doing.
How clever of me. Hindsight's a ~ .

The fact that these are my last pieces of work and will be the signal for a year finished makes it that much harder to focus. The mind is already half a step into another world while the rest hasn't realised the consequences and dangers I am facing with all the delaying and potential late deadlines.

Bring me back to this world, call back reality. Make me feel reality hit me and I might come back.

Labels: academia, boundaries, flickr, goal, life, minimalism, photo, time

London Classic Bus Hire
I took these photos a while back but have simply been far too busy to deal with them. Evidently I found some yesterday night and today afternoon so here they are.

Went rollerblading along the seaside that day for a couple hours. Real nice weather.
PS: Got to love rollerblading.

I think I like this one better large.

I have been a bit over-my-head busy lately and it's mostly my own fault.
Procrastination has never been and will never be a good friend of mine.
I need to start doing things at a more organised and dispersed pace.
Longing for trips to the seaside to feel the warmth on my skin, not just through my eyes, through a double layer of glass.


My list-system is slowly breaking down.
Let me explain; a little after the end of the Christmas vacation this year I decided to start listing things I need to get done, the decision came closely linked to my other organisation decision with an agenda.
It started out as a simple list of all the things I need to get done, ranging from reminding myself to eat the apple before it went bad, to assignments and things I need to get researched. Post-it was my friend and they adorn a strip of my wall. The story goes on; the list evolved, noticing it was disorganised and accepting that not all points were as important as others. So, I divided the list up in three: the "Very important and needs to get done soon" list, a "Get it done some time when you find the time" list, and "Do it some day.." (i.e. unrealistic to think I'll bother to do it anytime soon anyway).
Assignments with deadlines and things to research got the left most spot, apples and union work type things went in the middle, and lastly more future-oriented things in the last.

The list ran a good life, crossing off things more often on the important list, a little less often on the second, and practically never on the last. But as all things needing much effort with me, I stopped giving it the necessary effort required. Summing it up in one word: procrastination. Not only did I start pushing things to the last minute, I also stopped bothering to put up everything I needed to get done. The middle and right-most list have been unchanged for a while and the left-most (most important) list is only occasionally being altered and crossed.

As I'm writing I'm realising that all I'm doing is whining. That was a good system and it got things done more efficiently. I'm telling myself I'm too busy right now to resurrect the list yet here I am sitting on blogger. Now that I've confessed I better go restore the list and see whether it can be effective once again.
Maybe it'll pay off with a treat to the beach under the shining sun. I sure need one.

In other news;
Two or three posts ago I had different topics in mind than the ones I ended up with. Those topics ended up as a small .txt list and have been left on my desktop for a while. They were going to enter in this post but my mind had other things in mind.
I'll list them here, expect them to appear in the next post.
- glasses of perception
- foreign-language, public space, and noise
- the unsettling heart
- thanksno

Until then..

Labels: academia, agenda, boundaries, flickr, goal, life, photo, rant, reflections, time

Winter has gone
Barely took any photos during my Easter break but have nevertheless a few that I will be uploading when I get the time to.

View On Black

Yet another day I'd much rather be outside. Let the light from above shine upon my being. Let my hair take in every wavelength.
But here I am. Inside. Because a certain institution demands it.


We are all here
enjoying the day in each our way.

View Large On Black

..and I in mine.

EDIT: I just found out I've been on flickr's Explore since mid March. My first Explore photo xD Rejoice.

Labels: academia, annoyances, bored, boundaries, life, nature, photo, time